been a long time as i forgot my password,woops!
not a lot to say other than a weekend away caused so much hate for one place!I want to get out.

Missed the faces i saw over the last few days,got up to mischief and laughed over nothing.Those are the times i'll remeber.The times it was singing to us,the time his mum was the woman of my life.I've never been so cold,but you were there and it was worth.
I wish you took your bad qualities and made them into good,because with your existing good ones,you'd be as close you perfect you can get.
I dont know what i want from you,do i want you to be there?Or as far away as possible?There for all the right reasons,but at the same time they're the wrong ones.
How will i be happier?I need to put myself first in this one,but i just don't know.
weigh up the pros and cons,whatever happens,happens.

Rough.
Let down.
Guilty.
Sore.
fragile.




wishing i was in my prime.
wishing you were here with me.
wishing you would let me know.


missing you.
wanting you.
needing you.
all when i shouldn't

I'm falling deeper and deeper,to quick.I'm creating worries,just help me out and tell me how you're feeling.It's not all that hard,is it?



You say these things yet possibly mean another.I'm wanting to know what you're thinking baby,let me know when you're ready.Cause if its not what i'm feeling that theres so much out there for me to find.

Sudden rush of motivation knowing that theres so much more to it and several people there to help.I'm going to do it,no matter what.

**** is what we aim for?I couldn't agree more,just remember to keep it hidden.

Set myself some goals.Rules.Restrictions.Guidelines and limits.
Do whatever i can.

P.s ♥!

restored;
trust
faith
happiness

Baby I've fallen.Don't try and help me up,just fall down next to me

It's the end of the holidays,it was close to being perfect.But like they say,nothings perfect.Someone comes and creates doubts,a million and one thoughts passing through my mind.Mixed emotion and a thousand wishes,hopeful and wanting.
It's also a new year.New year,new start.thats what they say,clean slate and all that.I don't want that,just improvements.Mainly with myself.Just make things better so i'll be happier.I need willpower which is something i lack, but i'll try my best.You're doing what you're doing and i've already done want i want to do before,i'm sure i can do it again.Surely it cant be that hard.
I was most scared i've been all my life just recently.Thoughts every single day about how a certain thing could change my life for good,it didn't seem all that real,maybe it seemed that real that it became a dream,a nightmare infact.But now,i'm relieved.I was close to crying with happiness.A huge weight lifted and brought us that little bit closer.

goodnight.x

If you let yourself go,

make sure you can always get yourself back.

"I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this"

Since the holidays started it has been brilliant from the word go.I'm full of excitement and everything has been so 'spur of the moment.' There's a few minor things that i would like the disappear but they aren't bothering me all that much.It's no longer been three months,which is weird to think.Its also weird to think why it isn't three months and how,but i certainly aren't complaining.It was nice.
I enjoyed yesterday,i haven't been that lazy in a long time.Stayed in bed pretty much from 9saturday night til 8 last night.Slobber chops and telly,good times.
Speaking of Saturday night,that was a funny one.Started off planning to go the underground,got merry and tried go to a party.On the bus to the party Kyle was extremely drunk and decided he wanted a wee,tried to wee in a bottle but failed so there was urine allll over the bus,how lovely.Anyway,in the end we couldn't go to the party so i went back to Kyles,he passed out/went to sleep for a few hours and i watched A Knights Tale for the first time,it was good.Once he woke,he put animal porn on.That wasn't good.
Mother and Father are wrapping up my christmas presents as we speak,I'm ever so excited.Tomorrow i am heading off to hanley with Kyle to choose a dress for tomorrow night when me and few friends go for a meal then off to party.Several drinks,lots of dancing,drunken loves and slur of words.





Advice;I don't enjoy clingy people.Pipe down!

Ok,just a quick hello.
I have orange hair.
It's almost christmas,which means its almost new year.
I'm getting a very sexy Nikon F65 on December 25th.
I currently feel extremely large but thats only my fault.
Last night was odd to say the least.
walking to Cheadle from Kingsley at half two was a bit strange.
then waking up Ky's house was just abuhhh.
Lots of plans for the next week,how exciting and these new folk aren't that bad either.
However,people who feel the need to talk about behind my back aren't all that good,especially when they don't me.
I want a new book.
I want money.
I want W/L and i'm failing at the shrinking game but not due to flags.
I'm the most indesive person just recently which is quiet bad but fun too.
I'm happy on my own and i never thought i would be.
Being able to have my own freedom and do what i want is beauuuutiful
and i'll be staying like this for a very long time thankyou very much!





so you and your naughty arse can get fucked.

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