Baby I've fallen.Don't try and help me up,just fall down next to me

It's the end of the holidays,it was close to being perfect.But like they say,nothings perfect.Someone comes and creates doubts,a million and one thoughts passing through my mind.Mixed emotion and a thousand wishes,hopeful and wanting.
It's also a new year.New year,new start.thats what they say,clean slate and all that.I don't want that,just improvements.Mainly with myself.Just make things better so i'll be happier.I need willpower which is something i lack, but i'll try my best.You're doing what you're doing and i've already done want i want to do before,i'm sure i can do it again.Surely it cant be that hard.
I was most scared i've been all my life just recently.Thoughts every single day about how a certain thing could change my life for good,it didn't seem all that real,maybe it seemed that real that it became a dream,a nightmare infact.But now,i'm relieved.I was close to crying with happiness.A huge weight lifted and brought us that little bit closer.

goodnight.x